Angie Merriam

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Re-edit is complete

Posted by Angie Merriam on June 29, 2012 at 11:10 AM Comments comments (0)

Well, after about two months of editing Neveah A Broken Forever, it is finally done! I actually sat down and read the book from front to back, which I had yet to do. It was good to connect with the story again and I was excited to be excited about the book! It is now back on Amazon for Kindle and is being reviewed on Createspace for the paper back version. While I don't think it will be perfect (though I hope it is) I know I went through the book line by line, word by word..I truly hope it is better prepared for readers. Now it's on to editing Standing Broken and writing Unbroken Hope.

In other book news, Intertwine is getting closer to being ready for readers. I am hoping that by the end of the summer it will to be in readers hands!

Yay for progress!

On the horizon

Posted by Angie Merriam on June 5, 2012 at 1:30 PM Comments comments (0)

Hello! First, I want to thank my new members...Welcome! I am so happy to have you here with me. The last few months feel as though time has accelerated and I can't keep the pace. I was lucky enough to have a friend who, loves to edit and majored in English, edit Neveah A Broken Forever for me. Her insight has been invaluable and she actually taught me alot about grammer and such. (I love to write and have an active imagination but get lost with grammer and puncuation. I can admit my weakness) I have re-read the book and now I am transferring all the corrections to Word. It is a much longer process than I expected but I know the out come will be worth it. Neveah Standing Broken is also being edited and is in very capable hands. I am excited to get these two books back into the hands of readers but want them to be in tip top shape. Thanks for being patient :)

I have also, finally, decided on a title for the last Neveah book. It is to be called Unbroken Hope. It conveys the message of the book without giving to much away. I am probably about half way through. I was hoping to be done by now, but with all the editing, and life in general, I have not had a lot of time for writing. It's getting there!

Outside of my Neveah world I also have a collaboration book coming out. Intertwine is now in the capable hands of Dennis DeRose. He is a great editor and contributing author. Once the editing is complete the book will be released for free in digital form. Many very talented writers contributed their work and I am so excited for people to read the material. I think there is a little something for everyone in this book. Look for it in the coming months.

So in summary my life has been hectic and crazy and fabulous. My day job hasn't slowed down, my kids have yet to stop growing, I keep thinking of more projects, and time just keep getting faster. My goal by the end of 2012 is to have all three Neveah books available to readers, Intertwine in readers hands, and a month to rest :)  before I start work on Intertwine the magazine and a new book.

Talk again soon!


Posted by Angie Merriam on April 18, 2012 at 1:35 PM Comments comments (0)

If anyone can answer me these questions I would be grateful..or even just explain how things have gone so wrong!

1. Why is it so difficult for a white, middle class, young person to get an education? Credit checks for government financial aid?Really? No money for the middle class but a minority can almost always get grants or sholarships that pay most if not all their tuition. I am not racist, at least I try not to be but why can the Mexican or Black or Asian kid in my childrens school go to college for free while my child gets no help?

2. What the hell is going on with our health care system? Medical expenses are crippling middle America while new laws and bills are fixing to put private practice docs out of business. Welcome to government run health care! Say goodbye to being able to spend more than your alloted 15 mins with your doc and hello to being heared in and out of Kaiser like facilities where you are nothing more than a number! Got more than one complaint? Too bad, make another appoinment!

3. Where have all the good teachers gone and what is going on in our schools? Now, just to clarify, there are some good teachers out there and my children have been lucky to have them but there are some really bad ones too! Kids are being taught their teachers political views but if a student expressed theirs they will be sent home for being offensive?? No child left behind is a joke! Yeah they are not being left behind but are being pushed through without a proper education. Graduated to higher grades without full understanding of the grade they are leaving behind. Don't want to hurt their feelings or make them feel bad about themselves but we are hurting them by not giving them the proper education they deserve and that includes humility. Kids need not only learn from a text book but how to handle social situations, peer pressure, failure, consequence. We are hurting our children! Home school is looking better every day!

4. Medical Marijauna!!!Yes I said it! I am for it and for all that is good in the world can not fathom as to why it is still illegal! Anyone who is against it is not educated in the good it could do for many sick people. Alcohol and Cigarettes are legal and they KILL people every day. Opiate drugs are prescribed at alarming rates, getting unsuspecting people hooked on a drug that WILL eventually kill them if the habit is not broken! WHY is this OK? Vicodin, Morphine, Methadone, Xanax are all being abused by the general public, adults and teens, and it is deemed acceptable because they are prescribed by a Dr. Marijuana has been proven to help with nausea, pain, Parkinsons, Autism, MS, and a slew of other medical conditions while not one overdose case has been reported, nor is it habit forming like the other mentioned drugs no yet we keep giving folks poison that is killing them slowly. Please people, do your research. Talk to medical users. Talk to doctors that are for medicinal use. Talk to growers. Don't believe the garbage fed to you by the media and or the government. The problem is not what it does to the consumer as they try to lead you to believe, rather what it will do to pharmaceutical companies and other entities that feel it will be a threat. We need responible thinking. We need to do what is best in the interest of the people not the powers that be!

There you have it...let the comments go :)

Hello Spring?Are you there?

Posted by Angie Merriam on March 26, 2012 at 6:30 PM Comments comments (0)

There have been many things going on the past month but the arrival of Spring in the NorthWest is not one of them. Work...ahhh where do I begin? Sometimes it seems as though the "changes" are never going to end. There is always something to shake things up and I continually find myself wanting to run and hide. "Why can't things just go smoothly? Just for a little bit?" I ask myself on a daily basis, then I realize they are not so bad. I am lucky work with a great group of gals (that's right, I called you gals) and when the going gets tough these gals jump right. Be it funny facebook posts, twenty venting phone calls a day, or just good ole fashioned bitch fests we are a fun group and I am lucky! Now I just need to tell myself that on a daily basis..."I am lucky!"

When I look back on the past year and all that has changed I see how truly lucky I am. My mom is still here with me, my kids have been healthy and injury free for months, My husband got a new job that makes him happy, I have a fantastic lady helping edit my books, I have a fabulous collaboration book getting ready for release, and spent a super four days in Vegas! Life is good!

With the editing of A Broken Forever nearing an end it will be onto Standing Broken, publishing Intertwine, finishing the third Neveah book, and possibly continuing the collab idea in the form of a magazine. Who knows? The sky is the limit! I am grateful to have to many people to share this journey with. Thank you for coming along on the ride with me! xoxoxo

Neveah News and More

Posted by Angie Merriam on February 20, 2012 at 2:45 PM Comments comments (0)

Whew, things have been super busy as of late! The collaboration "Intertwine" is nearing completion and I am so excited to see the finished product. For those who are not familiar with Intertwine, it is a collection of short stories and poetry featuring a variety of writers and genres. I started this project a few months ago with the hope that a few people would come on board. I have been pleasently surprised by the amount of authors that wanted to be a part of the project and I am very pleased with the variety of writing styles. Look for it in the coming months for free on smashwords.

The third Neveah book is coming along slower than I had hoped. I put a lot of effort into Intertwine which took away some Neveah time..on a side note..there is a short story that I wrote about a Neveah character in Intertwine to hold fans over. I am ready to focus on Neveah now. Not only am I going to work hard on completing this story, I am having the first two edited by a friend who happens to have majored in English. She is doing this as a favor and I am very grateful to her. So, for the time being I un-published both A Broken Forever and Standing Broken. I am thankful to everyone who has bought and read them so far, but I really feel these books are not at their very best and want to give the reader the best reading experience possible. I have learned a lot about the self publishing world by releasing these two before they were truly ready and I want to do the story justice by doing it right. Thanks for everyone's patience while I perfect them just a little more :)

Once I complete the series and Intertwine is done I will have some free writing time. I have a couple stories and projects in mind. I am thinking of doing a quartly magazine in both digital and print form. I want to give indie artists a platform to get noticed...everything from writing, photography, painting, tattooing, ect...ALL art forms will be welcomed and promoted. The project is still in the planning stage, meaning in my head, but I really feel that this could be a very cool project! Keep an eye for new and exciting things to come.

Thanks to all my fans and friends, can't wait to see what 2012 brings us :)

The art of letting go

Posted by Angie Merriam on December 15, 2011 at 7:05 AM Comments comments (0)

As a child I always longed for a sibling. I wished for a big family full of children my age. My two step sisters never lived with me and I always felt I was a little on the outside of their lives. I have two 1st cousins and grew up very close to one of them, but I still longed for that feeling of a big happy family. Then I met my husband.

I was immediately drawn to his family including his three siblings. He is the oldest of four children and I always thought he was so lucky to have such a large family. I watched, many times, bouts of sibling rivalry, wondering why they chose to fight eachother, didn't they know how lucky they were? As the years passed by I learned that brothers and sisters fight, then they make up. They forgive, they love, and they hate all at the same time and all without realizing it. This way of bonding became extremely apparent when I had my children and watched as they formed their own bonds.

Watching my husband and his siblings through the years helped me to understand my own children and their rivalry with each other and the near constant love hate relationship they have created. Who would have known you could love someone with all your heart, unconditionaly, forever and ever, then turn around and hate them? The capacity of forgiveness with siblings is nothing less than amazing.

I adopted my husbands siblings as my own, and gave them no choice in the matter. I wanted brothers and sisters and I loved them, and still love them, with my entire heart. They are the siblings I always wanted but never had. I have watched every one of them grow into adults, get married, have babies, while I watched them proud as punch. They have been a gift in my life and I thank God and their mother that I have been able to share part of their lives with them. That's what makes it so hard to let go of them.

I have learned of rivalry, bonds, love, hatred, grudges, admiration, and loyalty from my self adopted siblings. I have also learned that they are not mine to keep. I have learned that dissapointment that comes from someone you love so deeply stings the worse. I also now know that you are the hardest on the people you love and judge them the harshest. I think most of that comes from wanting to see them be successful, happy, healthy, but it also stems from not wanting to let go of someone. I am now very aware that it doesn't matter how much you love or how much you fight, people will always go their own way. They will chose their own path. They will do what makes them happy because that is human nature. This however does not change the family bonds, it just means they are creating their own family unit. They are never really gone, just not always there. I hope against hope that these life lessons of letting go of the ones you love helps me deal with my own children as they grown and find their own way in life. A life that will not always involve me but we are always a family and this family always makes their way back to one another.

My quest

Posted by Angie Merriam on November 16, 2011 at 8:50 AM Comments comments (0)

So a few months ago I decided to quit smoking and thought it would be fun to document my trip ups and trials. What started as a great idea ended in me not quitting and not posting. I was embarrased that I had not followed through. I had failed.  I could give a million reasons why...there always seemed to be a reason or upcoming event that kept me puffing on the cancer stick. Knowing I needed to quit and accepting my weakness I started taking Chantix. I was scared as hell at first. I had heard the side effects were aweful including mood swings, anger issues, and dreams. Very vivid, sometimes horrible, dreams. I dream nearly nightly already and was afraid of what the Chantix might do, but I took it anyway.

Here is what happened...Week one: took as directed with no side effects. Week two: Tried to take as directed but the night time dose caused a little bit of insominia so I took only one dose mid afternoon. I was suppose to quit that week but I was still smoking, though not as much. Week three: I have almost 0 craving and realize the only time I am smoking when I was around other smokers. By the end of week three I stopped smoking and stopped taking the Chantix. Didn't feel like I needed either of them. It has been 13 days and I have not had one craving to smoke. I have been in situations where I normally would have lit up, but didn't.  It really is strange to not have that need anymore. Even in past when I have quit for short periods of time I still craved it. Not now. The urge is gone and I am so happy!

Now, onto my next goal. Since giving birth to my first child I have been over weight, more so in recent years. I am tired of it. Besides the fact that the 80's are back (my decade) and I want to wear all the fabulous clothes but can't....I have to get healthy. I spent the day in the ER on Monday due to chest pains and off the charts blood pressure. Thank god it was not my heart, just some really messed up muscles in my chest wall and down my arm, some high anxiety, and a serious need to loose weight. I will never forget the look on my kids faces when they thought their mom was having a heart attack or my husbands look of sadness when he came in the ER. I have to be healthy for them. I have to do it for me. I have to do it for the cute clothes. So my next goal is to lose 100 lbs by next November. If it comes off faster? Sweet, but I don't want to be unrealistic and get discouraged.

There you have it. My new goal and I will document it all as I go!

Calling All Writers

Posted by Angie Merriam on November 1, 2011 at 4:45 PM Comments comments (0)

I am very excited to announce a new project that I am beginning. A few weeks ago a friend on Linkedin posted a poem along with a plea for anyone to give advice on how to publish a single poem. I read the poem, loved the poem, and I was touched at the reason behind his needing to have it published. See posting here:

After giving it some thought I decided to try my hand at a collaboration book of short stories and poetry. I don't know why I was so motivated to do this, but I felt something pushing me to forge ahead. I posted a message in a few places asking for other writers to contribute their short stories and/or poetry to this project. The response was amazing and I have been lucky to read the work of some really talented writers.

I would like to place another call to writers to submit. The deadline is Nov 20, 2011 and is a not for profit project. I will take care of the formatting, uploading, cover design, ect...and Mr. Dennis(the inspiration of this project) will edit. It will be available for all e-readers for free and I will make a paperback version for the contributing authors to purchase for their personal use. Any genre (except Erotica) will be accepted and included. I am trying to figure out a way to include some art as well, not there just yet though. I will stay in contact with everyone through out the entire process and will ask for feedback on different aspects of the project. I want this to be something everyone will be proud of and something that can help all of us in one way or another! If you would like to submit something please email it to me at [email protected] before Nov. 20th! Thanks in advance!

PS Writers of all levels encouraged, even if you only have one poem or short story that you want people to read..submit and be a part of a fabulous project!

long time no see

Posted by Angie Merriam on October 26, 2011 at 4:05 PM Comments comments (0)

So, as it can be assumed, I seriously veered off course with my goal to be smoke free in 30 days! I have no reason. No excuse. I just couldn't do it. Call me weak, I am! What I have not veered from is the fact that I do have to quit! So, after much thought and deliberation, I saw my doctor. She prescribed me Chantix. I have considered taking the drug for awhile now, but the possible side effects scared the hell out of me. After trying cold turkey, and failing, I knew I had to do something so I started taking Chantix.

It has been almost 3 weeks since I began taking the drug. I was suppose to quit after the first week. I didn't. I did slow down dramaticly though and soon found the urge to light up was fading. Even while hanging out with friends, having a few drinks, I smoked less than I normally would have. By the end of week 2 the urge was gone! Yay right? Not yet.

I have smoked only 1 time in the last 4 days. To me that is huge progress. I don't have the urge anymore. I feel rather indifferent to it. It is just my habit I need to break now. I have to re-train my brain. I don't have to smoke when hanging out with friends, or when having a drink, or when I am having a crappy day. The addiciton is gone, but the habit is there. I am getting closer though and I am excited to be done with the cancer sticks all together. Another week maybe? We'll see :)

just a thought

Posted by Angie Merriam on September 11, 2011 at 2:15 PM Comments comments (1)

The last ten years have been very troubling and trying years in my nation'shistory. The attacks on 9/11 united a nation and the years that followed have helped divide it. I am not a highly political person but I am a proud American and current state of the country leaves me feeling worried, angry, and sad. I am proud of our troops serving to protect our country and its freedom and I am not ashamed to say that I supported the war efforts on both Afghanistan and Iraq. People can say what they will, but I am willing to bet EVERY American breathed a sigh of relief when Hussein and Bin Laden were captured and killed. I also believe it's time to bring our troops home. They have done their job and done it well, but it is time to focus on our nation, a suffering nation.

So many things have me worried lately, and being only one un-wealthyperson, I am not sure what I can do, if anything, and if I could, where do I start? I have a few strong beliefs and maybe just writing them down and putting them into cyberspace will have an impact of some kind. Maybe not, but it’s my way of trying.

Our economy is sinking and I think blaming President Bush is a cop-out. He may not have been the best president, which is debatable, but he served in a time when our nation was wounded, frightened, and uncertain. Given the trials he was faced with I think he did pretty damn good!  On the other hand, our current president has generated more debt than any president in history. He has yet to make good on his promise of 'change'! Our cost of living continues to rise while wages stay the same, gas prices are still high, the housing market has yet to recover, and many Americans are still without a job! Oh, let us not forget 'ObamaCare'.

I work in the health care field and believe me when I say ObamaCare is bad for our country. We need regulations imposed on private insurance companies. We need affordable healthcare, not free health care. I, for one, feel as though I should be able to see a doctor and be treated for a condition without it being controlled by the insurance or the government. Even now, if you have a below the line diagnosis and try to seek treatment while on a government health plan, you better plan to pay out of pocket because they chose what they pay for based on what they think is necessary for your health. Do you want to see a good doctor or specialist? Good luck, because state and government plans pay so low that it COSTS clinics to see those patients. This leaves very few practices that are willing to see those patients. SAD but true. Also, do you want to be seen by a doctor who takes time with you, talks to you,educates you, and doesn't treat you like a number? That will disappear as well and we will all be seeking care at HMO's like Kaiser where you are a number not a person! How is it sensible that insurance companies can dictate what medications and procedures you need? Our health care is out of hand and needs to be fixed not be turned over to the government. I am really just scratching the surface of this issue, but am highly concerned.

Jobs!!!! One way to stimulate jobs, offer tax breaks to those American companies that are out-sourcing to other countries and bring them back home! DO NOT tax large corporations to pay back what our people in Washington have borrowed! Why? They may be rich but they employ hundreds of people. If Washington raises their taxes guess who is affected? The employees! Large corps will begin to lay people off! This is bad, not stimulating. STOP spending more money to stimulate a bad economy that has been made worse by governments pending. Encourage small business owners, free up credit for business loans, tax breaks, create permanent jobs not temporary, band-aid jobs!

Housing! This is a topic that really bothers me. Why? Because I lost my house in the housing crisis while the bank that raised my mortgage got a bail out! Did I feel bad walking away from my home? Yes, because it was our first home. Because we loved that house. Because we had great plans for that house. But when a mortgage shoots up to $2000-$2500 a month(even though we kept our credit clean & paid our mortgage on time, we still were stuck with an adjustable loan and we could do nothing about it) A year later my $215,000house sold for $130,000 with a mortgage less than half of what I paid. Houses are priced low now, give those people who tried to do the right thing, but just couldn't make it, another chance. Free up credit for home loans, get the real estate moving again!

I am also concerned about my children’s future. What the hell is going on with trying to take the pledge of allegiance out of our schools? If the pledge goes against a student’s religion or ethnicity, they can simply sit out or leave the room for a moment. Why must we remove our nations pledge just so a few people are not offended? What is going on in our schools?  Teachers are imposing their views on students!(yes, teach politics but as a non partisan.....teachers personal views should not be imposed on students. If a teacher loves Obama, great, but does there need to be a shrine set up in the corner of the class room? If a president is going to be displayed, they should ALL be displayed and taught about. I sayt his because it is going on in my children’s schools!) Children are being leftbehind, teachers are underpaid and unappreciated, therefore some of them (not all) have lost the passion to teach which leaves out children without a proper education and that is not only unfair but un-just!

Please, I know I just scratched the surface (let's not start on the right to own guns, illegal aliens making our money, not paying taxes, and sending our American dollars to Mexico! These are topics for another time) and this post will piss people off, that is OK (freedom of speech) but we have to do something about our country for our future generations. We live in a beautiful, wonderful, and FREE country but things have to change or life as we all know will not be the same!

I am just a proud American that gets teary eyed when I hear Courtesy of the Red White and Blue and Proud to be and American! Let's unite as we did ten years ago!

I will keep those that died on 9/11 in my heart and be forever thankful to those who saved lives that fateful day and have fought for us in the years since.